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June 30th, 2007

Bakit ngayon lang?

Santi: Are you still happy with me?


Mina: Funny you haven't asked me that since the day we got married.


Santi: Hurry home.


Mina: I can't.

Posted by someyougiveaway at 10:57 PM in pieces | anung emote?

July 1st, 2007

Catching up with sisses....

 

ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:33:48 AM): halu
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:33:51 AM): mga ate
donna alagar (7/1/2007 10:34:24 AM): bading naririnig mo ba ko?
minz (7/1/2007 10:34:25 AM): d nyo na
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:35:00 AM): walang speaker si mina
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:35:05 AM): hello mins
minz (7/1/2007 10:35:10 AM): wala kong speaker!!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:35:13 AM): oo nga
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:35:18 AM): type na lang
donna alagar (7/1/2007 10:35:19 AM): jologs!!!!
minz (7/1/2007 10:35:22 AM): jologs talaga!
donna alagar (7/1/2007 10:35:36 AM): naturingan nsa amerika ka pa naman. harhar!!!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:35:37 AM): ay sunday pala nya
minz (7/1/2007 10:35:48 AM): yup nag uunwind akech dito ate1
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:35:50 AM): ate start na ako mag jogging bukas
donna alagar (7/1/2007 10:35:55 AM): wen ah.
minz (7/1/2007 10:35:56 AM): hahahha talaga!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:36:03 AM): akala ko nasa opis heheheheheheh
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:36:15 AM):
minz (7/1/2007 10:36:17 AM): wala rest day ko ngaun ~
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:36:19 AM): kelangan ano
donna alagar (7/1/2007 10:36:24 AM): ano ba yan nagiging health buff kayo.
donna alagar (7/1/2007 10:36:30 AM): san ka ngayon lola?
donna alagar (7/1/2007 10:36:35 AM): san ka unwind?
minz (7/1/2007 10:36:37 AM): syemrpre ate we only have one life!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:36:38 AM): aiii dapat lang hehehehehe
minz (7/1/2007 10:36:47 AM): nasa starbuks akech ngaun!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:36:50 AM): paview ate mins
minz (7/1/2007 10:37:08 AM): wa ko dala camera
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:37:16 AM): heheheheheh if i know
minz (7/1/2007 10:37:18 AM): laptop lang
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:37:21 AM): ayaw mo lang paview
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:37:33 AM): gusto mo kitain na lang kita diayan heheheheh
minz (7/1/2007 10:37:39 AM): korak!
minz (7/1/2007 10:37:41 AM): hahahah!
donna alagar (7/1/2007 10:37:46 AM): oo nga baka gusto tyo surprise na sexy na cya.hehehe...
minz (7/1/2007 10:37:49 AM): d nga nas akalye kse ako e
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:37:50 AM): sensya na ate naka nigh vission mode ako
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:38:03 AM): what do you mean
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:38:07 AM): asa kalye ka
minz (7/1/2007 10:38:09 AM): ok lang mukang kagigising mo lang ha!
donna alagar (7/1/2007 10:38:23 AM): nakikita mo ba kmi dyan sa amerika ate?
minz (7/1/2007 10:38:37 AM): nakikita ko c roselle
minz (7/1/2007 10:38:41 AM): sa webcam heheh
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:38:43 AM): oii hindi
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:38:49 AM): kakashower ko lang
donna alagar (7/1/2007 10:38:49 AM): nakapantulog na kasi ako.
minz (7/1/2007 10:38:59 AM): o nga gabi na jan!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:39:00 AM): ganyan effect ng nigh vission
minz (7/1/2007 10:39:11 AM): oi roselle may booking ka na ba?
minz (7/1/2007 10:39:19 AM): kikitain ka na ng asawa ko daw heheh
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:39:34 AM): wala pa nga eh
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:39:40 AM): mid july nga
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:39:47 AM): si coco ang umaasikaso
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:39:56 AM): pede kaya mga 20's
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:39:59 AM): ????
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:40:08 AM): parang me separation anxiety pa ako
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:40:15 AM):
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:40:21 AM): oo kitain ko si santy boy
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:40:30 AM): para beauty effects mo
minz (7/1/2007 10:40:40 AM): hahhaha korak!
donna alagar (7/1/2007 10:40:46 AM): cge yaya natin inom santi pagdating mo dito selle sa manila.
minz (7/1/2007 10:40:49 AM): cguraduhin mo muna kaya na ng kalooban mo
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:40:49 AM): bat antagal nyo magtype
minz (7/1/2007 10:40:54 AM): ang anxiety effect!
minz (7/1/2007 10:41:03 AM): kusap ko c donna sa kabila!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:41:11 AM): ok lang late july pa ko punta diyan?
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:41:17 AM): oo talaga punta koo diyan
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:41:28 AM): o kelangan na na mid july?????
minz (7/1/2007 10:41:33 AM): baka kse d umabot ung assesment mo e
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:41:45 AM): eh november pa naman yun ate
minz (7/1/2007 10:41:46 AM): ako nga wala pa den til now 3 months na un
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:41:58 AM): hmmmmmm
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:42:12 AM): madami ba nagpapaassess
minz (7/1/2007 10:42:24 AM): unless u mail it from there kahit d ka pa umaalis
donna alagar (7/1/2007 10:42:25 AM): hay naku...gusto ko sama...waah!!!
minz (7/1/2007 10:42:33 AM): sama ka na!
minz (7/1/2007 10:42:38 AM): dame ka naman anda!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:42:47 AM): oo yun na lang kaya cguro para late july na ako makaalis
minz (7/1/2007 10:42:51 AM): kung ung walang pera nga nakakarating dito e
donna alagar (7/1/2007 10:43:03 AM): kala mo lang yun ate...dami din gastos.
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:43:07 AM): pero baka di asikasuhin pag mailing lang
minz (7/1/2007 10:43:19 AM): baket wala ba savings?
minz (7/1/2007 10:43:41 AM): aasikasuhin kahit mailing
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:43:46 AM): me cut off ba ng submission for assessment
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:43:48 AM): ok
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:43:50 AM): ok ate
donna alagar (7/1/2007 10:43:58 AM): meron pero may pinaglalaanan.
minz (7/1/2007 10:44:00 AM): mail mo na as soon as kumoleto na
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:44:03 AM): punta na ako manila this week para makuha ko na lahat
minz (7/1/2007 10:44:16 AM): btw roselle baka d nako magbar bigay ko na lang sayo materials kech
minz (7/1/2007 10:44:22 AM): sayo na lahat
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:44:26 AM): di kaya nila ako madetect pagpasok ko sa customs na for the bar ako?
donna alagar (7/1/2007 10:44:28 AM): at bakit ate?
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:44:32 AM): at baka di ako papasukin?
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:44:50 AM): bakit naman?
minz (7/1/2007 10:44:51 AM): kse cant find the time e, work ako di ba? ayoko naman magbar ng hinde prepared
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:44:58 AM): hmmmmm
minz (7/1/2007 10:45:02 AM): sayanag lang
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:45:22 AM): eh baka pag nakakita din muna ako ng trabaho eh baka di na muna din ako magbar wahahahahah
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:45:31 AM): baka july na
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:45:34 AM): next year
donna alagar (7/1/2007 10:45:35 AM): ate standby lang kayo dyan ha...mukhang andyan na deliver piano.
minz (7/1/2007 10:45:36 AM): kaya nga dapat mamili muna talaga
donna alagar (7/1/2007 10:45:39 AM): be right back...
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:45:40 AM): pero hindi
minz (7/1/2007 10:45:42 AM): d ko affor d magwork eh
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:45:45 AM): try ko umabot
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:46:00 AM): apply pa din ako
minz (7/1/2007 10:46:05 AM): d ako pde mag quit sa work ate
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:46:12 AM): at salamat kung bigay mo sa akin mga mateirals mo
minz (7/1/2007 10:46:22 AM): yup u can have it all
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:46:27 AM): bahala na
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:46:36 AM): yun muna target ko bar
minz (7/1/2007 10:46:39 AM): saka kse im pretty sure uwi nako sa march for good
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:46:45 AM): i see
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:46:53 AM): well good for you
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:47:03 AM): napagusapan nyo na ni santy boy yan
minz (7/1/2007 10:47:07 AM): gustuhin ko man mag stay aywa talaga ni santi e
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:47:14 AM): i see
minz (7/1/2007 10:47:16 AM): yup kaya nga nagdecide nako
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:47:17 AM): ok
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:47:25 AM): eh di di ka na talaga makakapag bar
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:47:28 AM): oi
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:47:31 AM): yung tanung ko
minz (7/1/2007 10:47:34 AM): anu?
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:47:57 AM): baka pagsinubmit ko yung papers ko through mail eh baka madetect nila sa immigration
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:48:02 AM): na for the bar ako
minz (7/1/2007 10:48:06 AM): hinde noh
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:48:09 AM): di kaya
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:48:10 AM): ok
minz (7/1/2007 10:48:13 AM): promise hinde
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:48:16 AM): me isa pa ako problema
minz (7/1/2007 10:48:19 AM): wat?
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:48:23 AM): ang gusto kasi tatay ko
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:48:28 AM): magaral ako
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:48:31 AM): hindi magbar
minz (7/1/2007 10:48:34 AM): u mean masters?
minz (7/1/2007 10:48:39 AM): pde ren naman ate
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:48:41 AM):
minz (7/1/2007 10:48:44 AM): anda lang kailangan jan
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:48:51 AM): mga magkano ba
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:49:05 AM): at me grade requirements ba?
minz (7/1/2007 10:49:18 AM): hhmmm depednde kung san mo gusto ate kung nyu columbia ganun mahal dun as in
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:49:34 AM): pero me grade requirements ba o pareho lang
minz (7/1/2007 10:49:40 AM): kaialngan mo lang recommendations from work and teachers
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:49:46 AM): i see
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:49:55 AM): ok
minz (7/1/2007 10:49:57 AM): sulat ka den ng essay
minz (7/1/2007 10:50:04 AM): may interview pa ata!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:50:09 AM): oic
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:50:23 AM): well diyan ko na lang ifigure out
minz (7/1/2007 10:50:24 AM): pde mu ting nan den yan sa internet
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:50:33 AM): and mag surf din ako net
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:50:43 AM): oo
minz (7/1/2007 10:50:48 AM): ako kse balak ko pag uwi ko dito ako magmamasters
minz (7/1/2007 10:50:57 AM): un na lang premyo ko sa self ko
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:50:58 AM): you mean dito
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:51:03 AM): hindi diyan
minz (7/1/2007 10:51:05 AM): yup dito sa ateneo
minz (7/1/2007 10:51:12 AM): dyan sa ateneo pala!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:51:13 AM): dito
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:51:15 AM): hahahahahhaa
minz (7/1/2007 10:51:20 AM): hahhahaha o nag!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:51:26 AM): feeling asa pinas ka ah
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:51:31 AM): ai si neting kita ko
minz (7/1/2007 10:51:33 AM): oo nga ate feeling!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:51:38 AM): inaasikaso mga bata
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:51:47 AM): heheheheheh
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:52:16 AM): hay naku
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:52:26 AM): basta apply muna ako bar
minz (7/1/2007 10:52:42 AM): yup un muna ate mejo mahirao den aral nila
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:52:50 AM): ano pa ba schoold dyan na ok aside from nyu at uc
minz (7/1/2007 10:52:56 AM): tiningnan ko kailangan talaga full tim eden review
minz (7/1/2007 10:53:09 AM): kse wala naman tayong stock knowledge ng batas nila
minz (7/1/2007 10:53:28 AM): mas mahirap ang pasok sa utak, i tried as in nahirapan ako
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:53:35 AM): hehehehehe baka naman pagnakakita na din ako ok na work baka di na rin ako matuloy
minz (7/1/2007 10:53:46 AM): hehehe nasasayo yan ate
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:53:47 AM): pero hindi magaaral ako
minz (7/1/2007 10:53:52 AM): akokse i need to work
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:53:55 AM): ano pa ba ok na schoold dyan
minz (7/1/2007 10:54:09 AM): ok den fordham, st. johns
minz (7/1/2007 10:54:13 AM): pero mahal den e
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:54:14 AM): san yun
minz (7/1/2007 10:54:18 AM): basta private mahal
minz (7/1/2007 10:54:29 AM): dito den sa new york
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:54:32 AM): mas mura pa ata nyu
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:54:40 AM): university eh
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:54:52 AM): alam ko pagprivate mas mahal
minz (7/1/2007 10:55:00 AM): ivy league ang nyu kaya mahal
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:55:05 AM): pero diyan na lang ako magaaply if ever
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:55:15 AM): kasi matagal applications dito
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:55:25 AM): di ba?
minz (7/1/2007 10:55:35 AM): yup mejo mas matagal jan
minz (7/1/2007 10:55:50 AM): kse kailangan may acceptance na sa school na gusto mu pasukan
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:56:08 AM): pag masterals ba para ring pumasok ka sa law school ulit na me lsat achu chu chu
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:56:25 AM): LSAT
minz (7/1/2007 10:56:36 AM): im not sure about the lsats, alam ko madame papaerwork
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:57:01 AM): eh kung mag expertise ka sa isang law field
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:57:09 AM): di naman ate masyado strict
minz (7/1/2007 10:57:24 AM): 'depende nga sa school gusto mo pasukan ate
minz (7/1/2007 10:57:38 AM): sa nyu mahigpit cla 450 a year lang tanggap nila sa Masters nila
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:57:38 AM): oo na magiinternet na lang ako bukas
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:57:52 AM): i see
minz (7/1/2007 10:57:54 AM): out of ilang thousands na nagaaply
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:58:07 AM): baka naman galing lang up, ateneo san beda inaacept
minz (7/1/2007 10:58:16 AM): d anman cguroo
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:58:19 AM): ah bahala na bar na alng muna
minz (7/1/2007 10:58:32 AM): depends den sa dame bagay, reccomendations, grades, essay
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:58:41 AM): i see
minz (7/1/2007 10:58:52 AM): if you wantto take it up talaga, kumuha ka na jan recoomendations from your teachers
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:59:00 AM): pede di na lang kay dean?
minz (7/1/2007 10:59:06 AM): kaya nga ate u have to make up your mind
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:59:16 AM): sa teachers na lang?
minz (7/1/2007 10:59:18 AM): i think you need at least two
minz (7/1/2007 10:59:22 AM): from teachers
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:59:27 AM): kahit hindi kay dean?
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:59:30 AM): oic
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 10:59:32 AM): ok
minz (7/1/2007 10:59:35 AM): yup kahit hinde
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:00:07 AM): ok
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:00:07 AM): pede din ako kumuha recommendation sa coloege of law dean na pinagturuan ko ano?
minz (7/1/2007 11:00:15 AM): yup pde den
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:00:17 AM): asan na si bading
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:00:20 AM): tulog na ata ah
minz (7/1/2007 11:00:26 AM): ewan BRB da e
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:00:32 AM): baka nagyosi
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:00:35 AM): hehehehehehehe
minz (7/1/2007 11:00:36 AM): hahahahha
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:00:48 AM): ako din yosing yosi na di namn pede sa room
minz (7/1/2007 11:01:14 AM): pagtapos mu mag bar refer kita sa boss ko, kaw na pumalit saken
minz (7/1/2007 11:01:29 AM): that is if hinde cya magalet saken dahil uuwi nako
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:01:29 AM): ai sige ate
minz (7/1/2007 11:01:44 AM): pray ako d cya magtampo
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:01:45 AM): hehehehe di naman cguro me kapalit ka naman
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:01:58 AM): ang pangit kong wala ka kapalit
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:02:15 AM): at mahihirapan sya maghanap ng kapalit mo
minz (7/1/2007 11:02:24 AM): pde an den cguro kaw pumalit sa greencard petition ko
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:02:30 AM): ako ng oorderan nya ng greencard wahahahaha
minz (7/1/2007 11:02:32 AM): sayang den un
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:02:48 AM): that is kung desidido ka na talaga na hindi bumalik
minz (7/1/2007 11:02:49 AM): yup
minz (7/1/2007 11:02:57 AM): hmmm mejo decided na ate
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:03:05 AM): pero i doubt baka magbago pa isip mo
minz (7/1/2007 11:03:08 AM): lam mu kse kaw malaki na anak mo
minz (7/1/2007 11:03:15 AM): un difference naten ako maliit pa
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:03:18 AM): oo i understand
minz (7/1/2007 11:03:25 AM): enaawa ako ate
minz (7/1/2007 11:03:29 AM): lalaki sa yaya
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:03:32 AM): oo nga ate
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:03:45 AM): balik na lang ulit pag malakilaki na sya
minz (7/1/2007 11:03:46 AM): tama na may experience ako dito at ipun kunti
minz (7/1/2007 11:03:59 AM): bala na 10 years from now di ba
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:04:05 AM): oo
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:04:12 AM): kahit nga 7 years from now
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:04:21 AM): waah pagbalik mo dito
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:04:27 AM): palit tayo ng situation
minz (7/1/2007 11:04:32 AM): korak hahahah!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:04:33 AM): ako namn ang andyan
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:04:39 AM): ikaw balik sa inom
minz (7/1/2007 11:04:46 AM): saka ikwa den ul never know if you'd like to saty here talaga
minz (7/1/2007 11:04:53 AM): naku d na ate ahhaha
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:04:58 AM): hmmmmm nalungkot naman ako sa balita mo...pero syempre tama ka
minz (7/1/2007 11:04:58 AM): reformed anko e
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:05:12 AM): kelangan ng anak mo ikaw
minz (7/1/2007 11:05:14 AM): uuwi ako dahil sa anak ko
minz (7/1/2007 11:05:17 AM): un lang
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:05:37 AM): matagal pa naman yun eh march
minz (7/1/2007 11:05:37 AM): ung asawa matitiis ko ung bebe hinde hahahah
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:05:42 AM): madami pa magbabago
minz (7/1/2007 11:05:43 AM): oo tagal pa un
minz (7/1/2007 11:05:47 AM): 10 months pa
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:05:49 AM): malay mo?
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:06:09 AM): korak
minz (7/1/2007 11:06:10 AM): 'yup a lot can happen
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:06:13 AM): anak hindi
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:06:15 AM): asawa oo
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:06:35 AM): well ....just do whatever you think is right
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:06:47 AM): kasi ako i have my own reasons to be there too
minz (7/1/2007 11:06:57 AM): yup in any case pag uwiko jan, magmamasters pa den ako
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:07:04 AM): di lang study
minz (7/1/2007 11:07:06 AM): gift ko sa sarili ko di ba
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:07:12 AM): oo namn
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:07:41 AM): hhayyyyy mukha talaga desidido ka na ah
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:07:43 AM): heheheheh
minz (7/1/2007 11:07:48 AM): hehehehhe
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:07:55 AM): kelan mo pa yan napagisipan
minz (7/1/2007 11:08:05 AM): ganayan talaga ang buhay, i like it here kung dalaga ko ate i wont look back
minz (7/1/2007 11:08:17 AM): as in go for gold ako dito
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:08:24 AM): i know
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:08:41 AM): well pareho naman kayo abogado ni santy eh
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:08:46 AM): ok lang
minz (7/1/2007 11:09:10 AM): yup saka nagiba talaga disposisyon ko dito ate
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:09:10 AM): at chaka ok na din yun para makapagisip isip ako ...when i am away for awhile
minz (7/1/2007 11:09:27 AM): yup magiiba paningin mo sa buhay dito
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:09:35 AM): oo nga
minz (7/1/2007 11:09:35 AM): dame ka maiisp
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:09:40 AM): ganun din gusto ko
minz (7/1/2007 11:09:44 AM): good things for yourself
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:10:19 AM): pero promise mo hah irerecommend mo ako pag talagang aalis ka na
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:10:32 AM): pede ba ako eh tourist lang naman ako
minz (7/1/2007 11:10:37 AM): yup i will basta good terms kme ng boss ko i will
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:10:54 AM): di naman cguro tampo yun kasi ma kapalit ka namn
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:11:00 AM): hehehehehe
minz (7/1/2007 11:11:14 AM): sana nga expect kse nun forever anko sa kanya e
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:11:21 AM): ngek
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:11:29 AM): eh pano kung naging abogado ka na
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:11:30 AM): sana
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:11:32 AM): diyan
minz (7/1/2007 11:11:34 AM): isipin mo 1 months pa lang ako dati sa kanya, petition an nya ko
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:11:37 AM): sa kanya ka pa din ba?
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:11:50 AM): hehehehehe
minz (7/1/2007 11:11:51 AM): depende kung tataasan nya rate bat hinde?
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:12:07 AM): oh eh kung tataasan nya rate mo aalis ka pa ba?
minz (7/1/2007 11:12:11 AM): pero kse mag may greencard ka na dito pde ka na mag aaply kung san san
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:12:14 AM): kunwari doble
minz (7/1/2007 11:12:30 AM): hmmkahit na cguro ate
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:12:39 AM): san mo ba naeet boss mo?
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:12:46 AM): nameet boss mo?
minz (7/1/2007 11:12:51 AM): nag place cya ad sa newspapaers
minz (7/1/2007 11:12:57 AM): sinagot ko
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:13:04 AM): i see
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:13:08 AM): so talaga sa ads
minz (7/1/2007 11:13:18 AM): yup sinwerte lang
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:13:33 AM): cguro naman "IF " EVER
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:13:57 AM): march di na din cguro hectic sked ko pede na din ako magfulltime
minz (7/1/2007 11:14:15 AM): tapos na bar nun, pde ka na mag work
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:14:20 AM): oo nga
minz (7/1/2007 11:14:24 AM): full time kshit two jobs pa
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:14:29 AM): hahahhahhaha
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:14:34 AM): oo ate kayod talaga
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:14:44 AM): sana swertehin talaga
minz (7/1/2007 11:14:58 AM): ako nag hanap na ng second job now e
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:15:05 AM): ahahahaha
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:15:07 AM): talaga
minz (7/1/2007 11:15:10 AM): sana pray ka, kailangan dame dasl dito
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:15:10 AM): kaya mo pa?
minz (7/1/2007 11:15:28 AM): kakayanin sinc d nako magbabar
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:15:59 AM): eh kung noon mopa nadecide yan di sana mas malaki na naipon mo ngayon
minz (7/1/2007 11:16:15 AM): o nga ! hahahah
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:16:19 AM): dahil in that case nag dodouble jobs ka na
minz (7/1/2007 11:16:20 AM): naisip ko den yan!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:16:35 AM): ayang talaga
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:16:38 AM): sayang
minz (7/1/2007 11:16:41 AM): well pahirapan na naman humanap ngaun
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:16:49 AM): ai asan na si bading
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:17:00 AM): nakikipagsex na ata ke ace kita mo ba sa cam
minz (7/1/2007 11:17:01 AM): baka nagpatulog ng anak
minz (7/1/2007 11:17:11 AM): hahahha
minz (7/1/2007 11:17:14 AM): cra!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:17:18 AM): hehehehehehe
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:17:46 AM): basta pag punta ko manila tawagan ko santy
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:17:55 AM): at kukuin ko padala nya sayo
minz (7/1/2007 11:17:59 AM): yup anaty ka nun
minz (7/1/2007 11:18:09 AM): salamat ate!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:18:14 AM): tama mail ko na lang cguro yung requirements
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:18:20 AM): no problem
minz (7/1/2007 11:18:21 AM): mail mo na para umabot
minz (7/1/2007 11:18:29 AM): yan dapat ginawa ko e
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:18:34 AM): wait kelan ba alis parents mo diyan
minz (7/1/2007 11:18:46 AM): tentative baka feb next year
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:18:55 AM): so di na din tayo makapagshare ng flat if ever
minz (7/1/2007 11:18:56 AM): kaya nga layas na den ako
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:19:05 AM): oh ok
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:19:08 AM): hehehehehe
minz (7/1/2007 11:19:11 AM): mejo malabo na ate
minz (7/1/2007 11:19:17 AM): uwi na nga beauty ko e
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:19:17 AM): la na libre sayo hahahahaha
minz (7/1/2007 11:19:22 AM): korak!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:19:33 AM): well that is a nice desisyon
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:19:45 AM): pero me talaga i am very optimistic about it
minz (7/1/2007 11:19:56 AM): very good maganda naman talaga dito e
minz (7/1/2007 11:20:04 AM): quality of life the best
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:20:06 AM): medyo it takes me nga lang a while to be there
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:20:14 AM): hehehehehe
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:20:24 AM): alam mo yun tinatamad pa
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:20:27 AM): hehehehehhehe
minz (7/1/2007 11:20:49 AM): naku ewan ko sayo pagdating mo dito at makita mo ang bar materials
minz (7/1/2007 11:20:53 AM): matataranta ka
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:20:55 AM): pero i am sure ate i will be fine
minz (7/1/2007 11:21:03 AM): you will be
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:21:03 AM): hahahahahaha
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:21:12 AM):
minz (7/1/2007 11:21:18 AM): fine naman ako dito e. just taht my child needs me
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:21:25 AM): yeah i know
minz (7/1/2007 11:21:32 AM): sus kung ako lang naku i love ithere
minz (7/1/2007 11:21:41 AM): i love nyc!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:21:44 AM): me too
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:21:56 AM): ever since i was a child
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:22:01 AM):
minz (7/1/2007 11:22:13 AM): teh best state ito para saken!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:22:13 AM): asan na si bading
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:22:19 AM): oo nga
minz (7/1/2007 11:22:20 AM): wala na un
minz (7/1/2007 11:22:25 AM): nakipag sex na
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:22:38 AM): natulugan ang cam ng bakla
minz (7/1/2007 11:22:46 AM): o nga e!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:22:56 AM): buti di sila nagsex at nakalimutan andito tau nanonood wahahahahaha
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:23:03 AM):
minz (7/1/2007 11:23:03 AM): nway ate larga nakech ha
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:23:10 AM): ako din
minz (7/1/2007 11:23:11 AM): simba pa kse ko sa st patricks e
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:23:15 AM): yosing yosi na ko
minz (7/1/2007 11:23:18 AM): hahahha cge!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:23:27 AM): talk to you again tomorrow maybe
minz (7/1/2007 11:23:27 AM): catcha soon dito!
minz (7/1/2007 11:23:29 AM): nyt!
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:23:31 AM): cmok
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:23:34 AM): bye
ellesor lazo (7/1/2007 11:23:38 AM):
Yahoo! Messenger (7/1/2007 11:23:43 AM): ellesor lazo has left the conference.

 

 

 

Posted by someyougiveaway at 11:26 AM in nyc | anung emote?

Her day

Caught the concert/tribute for Princess Diana in tv. She would have turned 46 today.The world's best acts were in attendance. Elton John opened it. As expected. "Your song"gave me goosebumps. Sir Elton is a bit too eccentric for my tastes but I have to admit the man is good.



Diana's two boys, all grown -up now, graciously greeted the Wembley crowd.She would have been proud of them.They grew up to be dashing and well-mannered young men. 



All of Di's favorite performers were invited. I was pleasantly surprised that she was into Duran Duran and Tom Jones. Who knew? Rod Stewart was there. So was Take That. (didn't know they resurrected.) Everyone was at their element. The crowd was loving it. Until Kanye West appeared onstage. I'm sorry but i didn't get that. I can't understand why he was there. At least P. Diddy had his cover of  Sting's "I'll be Missing You" as a pass. But Kanye? Bloody hell?!



People from Di's various charities spoke about how the Princess touched their lives. The sick,disabled, homeless, AIDS victims. They told of the times she visited them incognito, the letters she wrote, flowers she sent. And of course that smile that captivated the world.



I guess that was she really left behind. A smile that somehow said our world is not perfect but it will be better because she was around. That was her mark. Then she passed.



While Diana's death came far too soon, she is as vibrant in her people's memory as when she was living. There is no tragedy in a life well-lived. One that touched so many others. 



This is why her sons found fit to celebrate it today. So long Princess!



Keep smiling.



   



Posted by someyougiveaway at 07:03 PM in nyc | anung emote?

July 2nd, 2007

For you, blue.

It's been a long year
Since we last spoke
How's your halo?
Just between you and I
You and me and the satellites
I never believed you
I only wanted to
Before all of this
What did I miss?
Do you ever get homesick?
I can't get used to it
I can't get used to it
I'll never get used to it


I'm under that night
I'm under those same stars
We're in a red car
You asleep at my side
Going in and out of the headlights
Could I have saved you?
Would that've betrayed you?
I wanna burn this film
You alone with those pills
What you couldn't do I will
I forgive you
I'll forgive you


For blue, blue skies
For blue, blue skies
I'll forgive you

Posted by someyougiveaway at 02:42 PM | anung emote?

Stumped

I've nothing really important to write about. No thought provoking observations about escalators or people reading in trains. None.

I'm just tripping over my new template. Orangey. Nice. It soothes my eyes. I can easily read the words I write. After numeorus attempts of creating kick-ass templates, I end up with a custom one and I'm happy with it.

I got so excited with the change that I dropped my log-in name altogether and adopted "Someyougiveaway". Frankly, i was going for "winterofmydiscontent" but tabulas couldn't approve it somehow. I figured that it was a sign so I opted for the former. And I'm still pumped

Finally, Sofia is speaking in tongues literally and nobody can understand a word of what she says. Now, this is pretty significant.I am the proudest Mom.

I started out with nothing and ended with everything.

She is always the equalizer, my daughter.

I'm not so stumped after all.

Posted by someyougiveaway at 09:51 PM in sofia | anung emote?

July 3rd, 2007

Center of Attention

Playing tricks. My mind. Must be playing tricks on me. It has to be that. Otherwise, someone with divine powers is not playing fair.

How many times can I wake up to sketchy dreams? better yet, wake up to one on the eve of my birthday? With barely enough time to recover from "it", I get to work. Open my pc. Log in my IM. The rug is pulled from under me. Again.

There it was. The star of the show. Talking, laughing, and greeting me a happy birthday. Just happened to be there. Like it always does. not for me, just around me.

Like a bad habit, I succumbed. I looked. said hello. thanks.Unexpected, but thanks.

There is no point, none at all, of flying 10,000 miles to run away from something you have brought along anyway.

Except that I didn't take it. I want so badly to be rid of it.

Someone is not playing fair. And it's not me.

Posted by someyougiveaway at 05:18 PM in pieces | anung emote?

July 4th, 2007

Things I'm sure of at 30

1. I'd still be brushing my teeth under the shower at 60.

2. While it may be stubborn, and stupid and cold at times, my heart pretty much yearns for the good.

2. I can't sell anything to save my life.

3. I prefer the indian squat than sitting properly with both feet on the ground, at home, in the office, anywhere. that's how i am.

4. I love eating far too much to avoid it completely (read: not eat rice)

5. People lie not because they want to avoid hurting somebody, but to save their ass from a mistake they made.

6. It is not possible for me to wake up before 6:30 unless the house is on fire or Sofia needs me.

7. TV series are generally better than movies. Why make do with two hours of an awesome story when you can have 100 for free?

7. Much as i try, in face of signs saying hating is a waste, there are some people I just don't like.

8. I couldn't ask for better parents. They, however, got the raw end of the deal.

9. America is the best place in the world to live in. If only it was home.

10. No matter where you go, you can't change what you are, how you feel and the kind of of heart that you own.




P.S. I'm quite sure I still like being me, I just want to be better.



Posted by someyougiveaway at 09:47 AM in pieces as a favorite post | 3 nangialam!

July 5th, 2007

The distance between us....

It might be a simple case of myself not being used to spending birthdays quietly, or knowing full well that they are moving on with their lives without me. Either way it sucked trying to call 4 people long distance and not a single one picking up. Santi couldn't call to greet me. Grace, my other best friend, admittedly forgot. It doesn't help that I've never felt so sentimental about turning a year older. I guess hitting the big 3-0 has seriously turned me upside down, worse than the thought of flunking the bar. At least that you can take again. With turning 30 and inching out of the calendar, there is no turning back.

There is an invisible report card that I seem to reckon with. Maybe that's why. I haven't earned my first million. Neither do I keep my own apartment. Though I have my six year old car, it was a gift from my folks. So that doesn't really count. I've little saved in the bank. It's a pittance actually. Just enough to buy the Palm Treo I've been pining for since I started to work. Financially, therefore, I don't have the right to turn 30. I am convinced that those who do must have something to show for it. In this regard, I've failed to make the grade. Aside from my license to practice law, I have nothing else to claim.

This is where friends and family come into the picture. While I cannot truly say that I "have" them, I like to think that they are the best parts of me. I certainly did not float around in the past twenty something years, I happened to them and they to me. It's just that being miles away seems to blur the memories a little bit. A few times I even wonder if some really took place or did i just imagine it? Because in some obscure days like this one, I am sorely disconnected. Like i don't exist. Not concretely. Or even in memory. SIM memory olats pa den. Nyeta.

If someone could just pick up the damn phone, ill be fine.


Posted by someyougiveaway at 10:13 PM as a favorite post | anung emote?

July 6th, 2007

Forever and ever amen

Everybody knows,
You don't get what you plan
And everybody runs away from what they don't understand
Everybody hides away the guilt of their youth.
And everybody wonders why no one ever tells the truth

Everybody knows that everybody wants
And everybody has their ghosts,
That emptiness that haunts
When everybody adds it up,
They've lost more than they've won
And everybody wishes they were just like everyone..
 
 
 
P.S. I wish I wrote any of these but I didn't, somewhere out there someone did for me, they just haven't realized it.

Posted by someyougiveaway at 04:38 PM in nyc | anung emote?

July 8th, 2007

While I am waiting

I wanted to drop my two cents on yesterday's supposedly lucky date 777 and quickly changed my mind. I figured every other blogger has already written down meaningful takes on it that the blogosphere probably won't need another one. It was rather uneventful for me anyway so why waste blogspace for something that was pretty forgettable in one's book.

There is suddenly a little more point in raving about the lip palette and gloss I scored from Victoria's Secret semi annual sale for 10 bucks. The most worth it ten bucks I've probably spent in a long while. I've never been much of a shopper which is unheard of in the female kikay world. It was either that the clothes I wanted did not have it in my size or it was way over my budget. For some reason, shopping and me did not appear to be a perfect fit. In hindsight, I would gladly fork out money for a night out with the girls or put gas in my car than throw it on shirts 2 sizes bigger that what I hoped I could fit into.

Unfortunately, I still keep the same shopping habits to date (gulp). I do not intend to change my wardrobe for the next three months until I can shrink into my ideal size. In the meantime, I comfort my self with the fact that I can stock up with make up until the moratorium on clothes shopping is lifted. Even then I only BUY the make-up, reserving its use for when I get home next year.

So here I am, staring at my 10 bucks worth of Victoria Secret make-up. Daydreaming about the time I finally get to dig into it. This is how its like living in a blip. An interim, so to speak, between a "now" and a "then". There is so much hoping going on. For things to come. For events to unfold. For time to pass.

One can only wait.

Posted by someyougiveaway at 08:50 PM in nyc | anung emote?

Thought for the day


"It's not brave if you're not scared"

Posted by someyougiveaway at 09:09 PM in pieces | anung emote?

July 10th, 2007

Fickle

Remember the ipod I was planning to gift my self with on my birthday? Well, i bailed at the last minute and bought two dozens of sprays from the Victoria Secret sale instead. I realized I could make almost 200 percent profit from every bottle sold in Manila which what Mom will do when she flies back home in September. Naturally we'll split the proceeds. Still, my net share can eventually buy the good, old 4G nano. Not bad for a 65 dollar capital.

But of course I will bail on it again. That is the story of my ever so fickle my mind. Its desires are so fleeting that I, the owner, can't even keep track of it. Maybe I should make a list. The list of all lists. Then stick with it.
It can't be that difficult. Can it? The answer to five little words should not be so elusive.

Mina, what do you want?

There. Plain and simple. It does not ask for the cure to cancer. Or world peace. It merely wonders why someone finds it so hard to buy herself a lousy ipod for her birthday.

Posted by someyougiveaway at 10:07 AM | anung emote?

July 12th, 2007

The promise

I am currently in the middle of my lunch hour and speeding this entry up before the boss arrives. I have to change my blogging time as Lola is occupying my room since she flew in and she refuses to turn on the aircondition claiming that it is COLD. While the rest of New York rants about the scorching summer, my grandmother is all covered up from head to foot. In connection to my blogging habits, I, thus, cannot do it at night unless I choose to evaporate in that heat.

Anyhow, I am going at it right now primarily to forget about the half-dozen things that I still haven't checked off in my to-do lists. Take a look!







It doesn't appear daunting I know, but it is in a way because apart from the above-mentioned, there are phone calls to make and return, clients popping by without appointments and my boss sneaking up some papers to file pronto. All of these, however, would pale in comparison with the workload I carried when I was back home working for a fairly larger firm. I miss it, sometimes. Especially when it gets slow here (read: have all day to blog). I would never have a day like that a year ago. Never. If I wasn't running from one courthouse to the other, I am sweating on a pleading, hoping to make the deadest deadline. So far, not a single day here comes close.

But then again,the point of coming here, I remind myself, is to take a break.

At one point, I tried to do everything and inevitably burnt out. Imagine lawyering 10 hours a day, meeting with friend or clients at night, be a mom on week-ends while trying to make it to an endless list of baptisms, weddings, birthdays and what-nots. No wonder I never had time to shop for a new blouse or a pair of flip-flops. Couldn't even bring poor Phoebe (my car) to the carwash. Come to think of it, I lost track of the stuff I needed to do for myself. At 29, I was a stressed-out, burnt-out, worn-out woman waiting to implode.

I forgot to put me on the list

I promised to do so this time.

Oops lunch is over. Gotta run.

Posted by someyougiveaway at 01:02 PM in nyc | anung emote?

the Major that was supposedly right for me.

Chanced upon this on a college student's blog. I wish there were surveys like these back in my time. (That wasn't too long ago, was it?!) Excited if the career path I took would match the results, i answered it as HONESTLY as I can. Here it goes:0

You scored as English/Journalism/Comm, You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Communication, English, Film, Journalism, Literature, or Writing.




It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.




Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.

English/Journalism/Comm

100%

Psychology/Sociology

81%

PoliticalScience/Philosophy

75%

HR/BusinessManagement

75%

History/Anthropology/LiberalArts

75%

French/Spanish/OtherLanguage

75%

Education/Counseling

69%

Accounting/Finance/Marketing

50%

Religion/Theology

50%

Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health

38%

Visual&PerformingArts

25%

Physics/Engineering/Computer

25%

Mathematics/Statistics

0%

Biology/Chemistry/Geology

0%

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?
created with QuizFarm.com



I am amused at the result. Taking it literally means I am in the not-so-right career afterall. Politics and Philosophy (my major) ranked only 3rd in the list. English/Comm was THE one for me, supposedly. Do I have any regrets? None as far as I can see.

Although, sometimes I have to admit, there seems to be more than what I thought i wanted. If i had gone the other way, take a stab at being a writer or journalist, I'm not too sure if I would do it justice. It would've rocked my world, sure, but would have I been any good?

There's the rub, i guess. What you might like doing best does not always end up suiting you. That's how it is between the law and me. I might not be head over heels for it, but it suits me.

I sure hope there are no OBJECTIONS on that.

I rest my case.


Posted by someyougiveaway at 07:52 PM in pieces as a favorite post | anung emote?

July 15th, 2007

Sunday the Fifteenth

My feet hurt. After 4 hours of traipsing around the city, they refuse to take another miserable step. There goes my scheduled work-out at the gym. No, I will not be guilt tripped. I walked twenty or more blocks to Fifth Avenue, got lost in Chinatown, walked another ten, thank you very much. 500 calories, at least, down the fat drain. Wait, that's getting ahead of the story.

After grabbing some Chinese dimsum and shrimps at Ollie's Noodle shop, Mom and I trouped to Cosmetics Market which came highly recommended by Dinna as the make-up haven of Manhattan. True enough, I went crazy over the cheap but quality cosmetics they offered in the store. I had to blink a few times to check if I'm missing some zeros on the price tags. Maybelline eyeliners went for $1.99 each. L'oreal matte lipsticks at $3.50 per tube. They weren't even on sale. They were just good buys. I had to talk some sense to myself or I would have fished out the debit card and cleaned out the Maybelline rack. After a couple of deep breaths, I settled for an eyeliner and liquid eyeshadow for a grand total of five bucks. That's what you call discipline. I could always go back, Mom reminded me. And I am so going back.

On the other hand, Mom worked the shelves of Jack's 99 Cents Store next door with precision and grabbed 15 bucks' worth of goodies. Crackers I bring to work, a couple candle holders, giftwraps for a niece about to celebrate her debut. Who knows what else she ran out of the store with. Mom gets her fix from shopping. I let her be.

Ecstatic over my new discovery, I allowed her to put one over me by taking the bus to Soho for some pasalubong she is sending to some relatives in L.A. It still boggles my mind why we had to go downtown for shirts and caps she could have easily bought in the nearby Midtown shops. But half of what makes up my mother boggles me anyway so I shut up and let her lead the way. Three caps, a bag, and a vanilla shake later, we are lost in Chinatown. By the time we saw some semblance of The way home, my knees were buckling and Mom was parched. A familiar bus stop never looked so good. We hopped in and muttered our hallelujahs.

Blisters and all, it was still a good day.

I intended to finish last Friday's unfinished entry before I wrote about today. But it didn't seem so important now. I was going to continue harping about why Mom had to be my grandmother's caregiver so much that she's losing weight over it. And why it's not fair that the old woman does not know any better and still finds reasons to complain. And that Dad remains unmindful that his wife has turned into the nanny while his sisters could not be bothered to fly in and do their share.

No, I will not be guilt-tripped on this one either. Not because I help her out with any of the chores because I don't. She wouldn't take any from an inefficient me. But because I know I still get to be part of her good days.

Somehow, that counts for something.

Posted by someyougiveaway at 06:14 PM | anung emote?

July 17th, 2007

Wishful thinking

The dollar is sinking. Peso on the rise. Conclusion: Mina needs a raise. I went up to the boss this morning. He has been in the best of moods lately. Whilst I've been finding a way to skirt around everyday work and mention my request. Finally, he gave me the opening I needed. He asked about my greencard petition. The 2,000 dollar petition, I casually retorted. The one I need a little help on. I asked if I could work another hour so I can save up for it. He said he'll think about it. He says he's leaning towards a bonus rather than a raise. I hardly write about the goings-on at work or interactions I have with the boss because sometimes I feel he reads this damn blog. But right about this time, bring it on bossing! Read this: I love bonuses and the like but I so need a raise. Thank you. P.S. On my fifth month here, there is suddenly a deluge of text messages from Manila. It took that long to miss me? I missed all of them since day one.

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July 18th, 2007

BUSTED

There will be no raise. Not a shadow of it. I'll be lucky if I get to keep the job. All because of my own clumsy fingers.

I was churning an e-mail to Santi, advising him for the nth time to apply for a notary commission. At the end of the letter, I swore to do the same when I get home. Feeling so antsy to send it out to cyberspace, I didn't notice that I had it CCed to the boss' address.

Stupidity at its finest.

Click.Send button. The e-mail has been sent.

There goes the anticipated, much needed moolah. Now he knows I'm going home. No greencard petition to spend for. Worst, the lie is exposed. His immigration associate is leaving for good after he had spent thousands for immigration advertisements.

I wanted to cry. I needed so badly to make the most out of my one year stay here. Now, I've blown it. The best-laid plans ruined by a click of button. That's all it took. In my world, that's how it usually goes down.

In a flash. What luck.

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July 20th, 2007

It doesn't make sense

Woken up by a friend's phone call an hour before midnight, I chided him that his train ride from D.C. (work) to Virginia (home) must be awfully boring that he calls me to pass the time. Not that I mind, I can use the occasional chat considering I don't get too many local phone calls here. When I do, even if I'm somewhere between awake and asleep, I pick up the phone nonetheless.

This particular conversation runs the same script every time. I chastise my friend for the two jobs he keeps, taking up even his Sundays. He has no day-off. He reasons out saying he is saving up for a church wedding in Manila this September. Typical with us Filipinos, a wedding is a wedding is a wedding. We prepare for it and if it can be helped, it will be "engrande", big and lavish with all our friends and relatives invited.

Still, I argued, that is no reason to work on Sundays. And to be really honest about it, I know he'd still be working seven days a week, wedding or no wedding, because that is the life an Overseas Filipino Worker (OFW) keeps. I haven't told him about my decision to come home. Maybe because even I feel a little sad and disappointed with that change of heart. I make no bones about the fact that yes, I will turn my back on a better, financially stable life for me and my family. That is the source of the disappointment and fear that I continue to wrestle with everyday.

But I told my friend I couldn't see myself waking up everyday with nothing to look forward to but work. Will a 40-hour week be good enough? Should I demand for a higher rate? How much do I have to receive an hour to save for such and such? The preoccupation with making more money is draining. Struggling as I am, I realize I can't go down that road.

I asked my friend one question before his train ride ended.

Is there still meaning in living here?

The line is cut and I get the busy signal. Til the next phone call.




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Hit by and hit on..

I want so much to write about some offand topics whizzing through my head but I'm just tired. It was one of those sleepless weeks I seem to occasionally have in the Big Apple.When it hits, I am bulldozed the entire seven days.

So much for the Pottermania I was inclined to watch in the news. While I am not a die-hard fan, I understand the hype that the boy wizard commands. Deservedly so, I think. As a Mom, I firmly believe it has markedly improved the reading habits of the young ones which is always a good thing. I could go on forever on how I think J.K. Rowling is a witch-zard (not sure if there is such a Potter term) in real life. But like I said, my eyes are heavy. After Friday night laundry, I'm pooped.

Before I turn it, I have to mention that my client, Mr. Malik, casually asked me out on a date. And I casually said yes in the beginning, thinking it was work-related. When he made it clear that it was nothing about that, I was still convinced I should oblige, if only for the free Indian food that sounded so enticing. In the end, I came to the conclusion that it wasn't such a hot idea. I didn't want to send poor Mr. Malik the wrong signals.

I am not one to lug around big principles like "thou shall not date clients", "older men", "old men period". I don't utilize my status as a married woman as a defense to avoid or turn down men who show interest. I don't see the point. Bottomline is, there are situations that simply do not appeal to me.

Like having lunch with a person I have nothing to gab about save for work( which he clearly wasn't in for). I would much rather catch up with Harry and the rest of the gang in Hogwarts, given the choice.

Married woman or not, there are constants that remain for myself. I may not always know what I want, but I keep tabs on what I don't. Not even a hearty Indian lunch can change that.

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July 22nd, 2007

Proof of life

Took my first picture in Manhattan. In my rooom here in Manhattan,actually. It has been a self-imposed drought on pictures of myself for a few years now. There was this nagging feeling that the angle is never quite right, or my nose looks too darn big, or the double chin is showing. Whatever. There's always something wrong with my face.

Regardless of my reluctance to take a current picture of myself, I had to.Lest people who have been bugging about how I am five months since I came here might actually start to think I've disappeared from the face of the earth.

So here I am. All in my pambahay glory. About to sleep with some eyeliner on. Well, I hope this appeases the mob.







P.S. default usericon while I'm at it.

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July 23rd, 2007

When playing it real safe is better

I was doing my Sunday round of tv movies when I caught a scene from the Hollywood hit Ocean's 11. I have watched this flick a few times and what stuck in my head was that exchange between Danny Ocean (George Clooney) and Tess ( Julia Roberts) at a casino restaurant.

Danny touches Tess's shoulders and she flips her head and smiles, thinking it was her present boyfriend (Andy Garcia's character, forgot his name here) strutting in late for their dinner date. To her obvious surprise--and dismay, it was her dashing but good-for-nothing thief of an ex-husband, Danny Ocean, who has just got out of the slammer for robbery. She gives him a cutting look and tells him not to sit. He sits anyway. He holds her hand. She shoves him away. He asks where her wedding ring was. She says she sold it after he was sent to prison and left her nothing but loans to pay. Besides, she's not married to a lying thief anymore. He says he has stopped doing it. Steal? she asks. Lie, he answers. Sick and tired of his bullshit, she tells him to get out of her sight. Why? he mocks. Because I'm with someone else, she hisses.

And here goes my favorite part.

Danny: Does he make you laugh?

Tess: He doesn't make me cry.


With the bitchy attitude and cocksure delivery of her lines, I was almost convinced that Tess meant every word she said. She made it crystal clear that she wanted nothing from her ex-husband who deceived her. Lied to her. Caused her pain to last a lifetime. Not especially now when she' s with somebody who appreciates her, does right by her. I was almost convinced that she would rather pick this tears-free set-up with the new boyfriend than get back to the roller-coaster ride with Danny . Almost. I would have clapped my hands until they turned sore if she did.

What's wrong with settling for something safe? Or simpler yet, avoiding something that never fails to hurt? Isn't it common sense to run away from a burning building? Or steer clear of an open pothole? Who in his right mind would forge right ahead? Doesn't self-preservation matter?

In a society where passion, ambition, love are immortalized, there is a premium on the ability to take the hardest blows. One is better friend, student, spouse, child if he/she persists amidst tough times with tough people. In short, there is a proverbial prize for those who have put up with so much, I dare say, shit from others and/or shitful situations.

But then again what's the use of gunning for a profession or a dream job if you get there dead on arrival?

Or loving? If love, literally, hits you. As in binubugbog ka? (beats you). Cheats you. Lies to you. How's that for passion?

Tess was right. It can leave you feeling giddy all over. You can bend over laughing because of it .But you can't eat love. You can't wipe your tears with it.

It, however, can abuse you. Rob you off your dignity. Reduce you to being legally blind when you have a perfect 20-20 vision.

Right. All we need is love.

Sometimes settling for something less is settling for something better, really. But then again Tess remarried Danny.

I was almost convinced. Almost.



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Hey me..



Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.

Posted by someyougiveaway at 04:15 PM in nyc | 1 nangialam!

July 25th, 2007

dear b,

As swiftly as I made up my mind to fly to New York five months ago, I'm flying back home in the next three. Both were not part of my long-term plans. They sort of just happened like many other unxplainable things that seem to creep up on me. Besides, I've always been impulsive. Never did I learn to take a step back and maintain perspective. This time around though I hoped to stay in place a bit longer as I was honestly loving the peace of mind and silence that the distance brings. I can't say that it gets terribly lonely more than it gets terribly quiet. Because, in truth, I'm fine with either. For a change, I can hear myself think and ask what the events of the past years meant and how it all changed me.The lazy hours I spent on the train and the long walks I took around the city seem to calm me, the way you'd feel after running for miles and finally seeing the finish line. It was only here that I managed to catch my breath. Upon the sudden news that I inevitably have to go back home, I tell myself that this time it will be different. I know it will because I've found out things, good things, that I've discovered I care about. Like my music, my little online world here, smiling, going back to school. Life is still one great gig after all. I'm far from the tired, broken up girl who left home months ago. I guess it's true. It's always a wonder what the passing of time can do. I'm all glued up now. But in putting back the pieces one by one, there is still that one about you...I can't shake. love, M

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July 26th, 2007

Dad and Mom:)

 



I never thought it would bring me this much joy to say these two words,



Happy retirement!



Quit worrying about me, I am fine. Going home is what I want. Now all of us will do. It's about time.




Love you both!




Me



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July 27th, 2007

Matter of time

Funny how one day you realize that you're running out of time? There was oodles of it a second ago then, boom, none the next. The whole concept of "having time" is tricky because one doesn't "own" it in the strictest sense of the word. It is something that we are all "in", yet it continues to pass us by. So how can one truly have a "day", "hour" or even a "second" for himself when it breezes by, sometimes without notice like a thief in the night? It is safe to say that time is something we "have" but don't actually "own". Because to "own" a certain amount of it denotes not being too consumed by the prospect of its loss. I say this only because in everyday life, losing something does not translate to it being lost forever. There is still that chance or choice of it being found. Moreso, if the thing lost belongs to the owner, chances of it being returned to him/her are bright because he/she is the possessor, whether it be by legal (by law) or equitable (fairness) title. Think of a misplaced mail which usually is returned to sender. Or a wandering dog to the address printed on its leash. Ownership implies the right to claim exclusively. This is not the case with time. Once it is lost, it is gone for good. You cannot buy, trade, bargain, bet or beg it back. It is irretrievably lost. And where does second chances fit in? It cannot be denied that people sometimes try again for something that eluded them once before. But what they eventually acquire is not quite the same thing, is it? It may appear to be of the same make, kind, model, feeling and sometimes person. But is not. What was lost is irreparably changed by the passing of time. Heraclitus from a lifetime ago once taught,"One cannot step into the same river twice". This is what makes time special. And wicked. Without the slightest hesitation, it doesn't quite leave you the way you were found.

Posted by someyougiveaway at 04:48 PM in pieces | 2 nangialam!

July 28th, 2007

Damn us beautiful girls

Can't get this rasta/hiphop sean kingston piece here from my head. Wanted to share it with y'all blogfwends!



And here is a cover which for some abnormal reason I favor more than the original Ha! All right, fine. I think the guy on the guitar is pretty cute. Sue me!


P.S. Off to Staples to scour for a digicam. After Dad's retiremement announcement, the clock is tick-tocking and I've zero pictures of NYC. Loser.

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July 29th, 2007

Five friends every woman should have

One good thing about bloghopping is continously stumbling on plenty of food for thought, in form of the blogwriters' own musings or their discoveries from yet another blog. I came across this article written by Michelle Burford from Dinna's corner and I felt compelled to give homage to my own "five friends" whose presence in my life have changed it and made it better. Except that there are six of them. I insist on keeping it that way as I love them all dearly and equally.

I've always made it clear that while I may be seen in the company of hordes of people, I know who's got my back through hell or high water. Here are my six friends as aptly described in each category:

1. The Uplifter
This woman's favorite word: yes. You could tell her you're trading your six-figure income for a career in offtrack betting, and she'd barely pause before yelping "Go for it!" Don't you need someone who looks past the love handles to notice the extraordinarily gorgeous you?


My uplifter is Coeli. My first friend in law school who never failed to remind me that even if we didn't graduate from Ateneo law, we would make great attorneys. Seven years, two law shools and a bar exam later, she was right. I woudn't be as feisty yet cooly collected in our career if not for her constant assurance that we are as good as any other lawyer in town. She is my staunchest defender as I am hers, in face of those who never quite understood two Atenean philosophy majors trying to make it outside their beloved alma mater. We have been inseparable eversince and I guess for the rest of this life.

2. The Truth Teller
Intent is what separates the constructive from the abusive. Once you've established that the hard news is spoken in love (not in jealousy or malice), you'd be smart to seek out this woman's perspective.


My truth teller is Grace. Although there are times I had to bite my tongue as she'd start to berate me for another bad decision brought about by another drunken night, I know I need her to tell me things the way they are. Calling a spade a spade is what she's good at. One time she literally threatened to end our friendship if I do not take the high road and tell a heartbreaking truth to my then boyfriend. The thought of losing her was harder to bear than keeping a lie so I 'fessed up. She still scolds me whenever the need arises. All this from a five foot flat, 100 pound girl-woman who's now godmother to Sofia.

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Moi with Coeli and Grace

3. The Travel Buddy
When the hotel in St. Lucia is a bust, one characteristic becomes all-important: flexibility. This agreeable companion need not be the girl you traded pinkie swears with on the playground; it's enough that she's comfortable with quiet (between gabfests) and is a teensy bit mischievous (as in tequila after midnight).


My travel buddies are Giselle and Celeste. They are my fiercely loyal highschool friends from the International School who, despite coming from wealthy Chinese families, never made me feel that I was any different being, then, a Filipino transferee from an African school, all dark and gangly in my tacky ripped jeans and nerdy glasses. It was eating that drew us together.Since then we have bonded over our "trips" to all the interesting restaurants in Manila, dreaming that one day we'd run our own. In one roadtrip to Baguio after we graduated from college, we dined at Mario's, where I raptly listened to them expound on how to eat a banana, fine-dining way. This friendship has spanned 15 awesome, food-filled years and counting.

4. The Girl Who Just Wants to Have Fun
One Saturday a pal and I—and yes, we're both over age 12—pored over every glitter lip gloss in a drugstore aisle for an entire 45 minutes. Forget the crisis download (for that, see the Uplifter); this partnership is about spontaneous good times.


My "fun" friend is Ning. I dated somebody from next-door Miriam College when I was in Ateneo through whom I met Ning. She always had that "edge", spunk, spontaneity that I so desired for myself. She's the type who would rather cut class than miss Joe D' Mango's love notes--which got me seriously hooked on that 90's radio show. Over the years, she has been my "midnight caller", opting to text me in the wee hours of the morning so that we could meet in our favorite hang place, Whistle Stop Libis. I cannot count how many hours we've spent talking, laughing and sometimes crying in that joint, to the point that the waiters knew our cars' plate numbers. Everything I know about having a good time and quality beer I learned from this girl. They have since taken down Whistle Stop but even that can't stall us. We still go at it as if college was just yesterday.

5. The Unlikely Friend
"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive," Anaïs Nin wrote. My friends—some twice my age, others half, some rich, others homeless, some black like me, others Korean, Mexican, Caucasian—have added richness to my life that only variety can bring.


My unlikely friend is Erika. If someone told me that I would be bestfriends with a Mills and Boony type of reader, I would have said , not a chance. While I am a bookworm, I draw the line between Danielle Steele and downright sappy excuses for a book. But then Erika's parents sold my parents our house and the rest is history. Here's a girl who is 3 years younger than I but nobody can ever tell. She's well beyond her years, that I'm sure of, after putting up with a pal as complicated and stubborn as I am. Her favorite line is, "If i can just throw you out my window, i will!" She says she doesn't because crazy as I am, I bring color in her otherwise straight, steady and stress-free life.



Whenever I am down , I count my blessings and come up with these names in the top ten.

To my six people, you give friendship a whole new meaning. I love and treasure you always

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